I deny myself permission for the silliest things sometimes…
One of the bigger voices in my head is about what “other people” might think of me. For example, I just came out of the 90˚ heat having walked my dog for 45 minutes. The local farmer’s market wasn’t yet open, so I was thinking of going back for some produce. And yet, I was withholding permission to myself to drive there for fear of somebody thinking I should have walked.
Yeah yeah I know – Who cares what others think? I’m surprised I’m still unable (consistently anyway) to just put my own needs and the needs of my wellness first. I could walk the 4 blocks to the market. But frankly, I know my body has had enough heat for the day, as I’ve not yet acclimated to the heat of this summer, and I know too much heat can cause a relapse for me.
So I realize I’ve created an unnecessary quandary in my brain that frankly is creating more discomfort and suffering – and using some of my limited daily mental energy.
What others think about my choices (without knowing MY context) is irrelevant to what is important to me. I can give myself permission – I don’t need it from anybody else.
When I remember this – that nobody can see my context, nor can I see theirs – I also become more compassionate for others doing things that might seem questionable for me.
I give myself permission to be me – to TAKE CARE of me, and thereby give myself permission for others to be themselves…
Simple, but not easy… ~Z